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LOS ANGELES -- Actor Patrick J. Adams doesn't boast a photographic memory like the character he plays on USA's new "Suits."

In fact, Adams can't remember names or references in books, but he can memorize a script after three readings.
He doesn't harbor the daring of his character either. But he says falling in love and being scared speechless to work with Dustin Hoffman has helped him earn the confidence he needs.
"I spent a lot of years in that place, with the walls down to try to protect myself and my way of life and my way of thinking. And every time I return to what I think acting is, it's the expansion. Every time I really engage in what I love to do, suddenly I feel I have to involve this curiosity and encourage it in myself. So in a way, acting really saved my life through a lot of difficult times."
The Canada-born Adams was 16 when his parents divorced. Two years later he moved to L.A. "My family kind of schismed at that time, we're much closer now. It was a difficult time, leaving my home completely and coming here and trying to discover my own identity," he says.
"It's just when you feel you're sort of cemented and you've got your life figured out, and I know who my parents are and this is my unit -- I got it -- and then it just explodes.
"It's for the best, in retrospect, I think everyone's a whole lot happier. But at the time you don't know that. To move at 18 to a new culture and a new place, you feel sort of alone. I think there was a lot of feeling very unsure of myself."
Two years after the divorce his father, a journalist, moved to Hong Kong in search of work and his mother, a business entrepreneur, sold her information technology company with the promise to help pay for Patrick's education.
Determined to act, Adams, 29, attended University of Southern California. It was there that he joined a student-run theater.
"It was almost like I found my tribe,' he says. "It was the rogue group of theater artists. These were people from the film school and the writing program and from all over the campus who just wanted to put on plays. They weren't refined. It was a rag-tag group of artists doing midnight musicals and stuff and I got so integrated into that by the end of my first year I'd found a place I belonged."
Before he even graduated he won a role in an independent film. But three weeks into it, the company folded. "I was stuck in Red Deer, Alberta, they wouldn't even fly us home. I got my mom on the phone and she flew me to Toronto for a couple of days and she flew me back to L.A."
After graduation he landed a part in an Edward Albee play in Los Angeles. "I thought I was set. 'This is it!' Right after that there was nothing, so I started doing little things on TV. It was a period of real transition for me and my work. But now, seven years later, I've done a ton of television but never got the break ... It's all been ups and downs that's why in the past year and this part I finally understand that I need to let go of the steering wheel a little bit."
But while he was easing his grip, he found himself playing opposite Dustin Hoffman in HBO's upcoming "Luck."
Adams was terrified. "He's hard," he says of Hoffman. "He doesn't let young actors get away with anything. He does not make you feel comfortable because he's about the scene. In the scene we were shooting, I was not supposed to be comfortable so he made it really difficult for me ... The actor I was a year ago would've been too frightened and too wrapped up in my own fear and my own self doubt to be able to push through it. ... What he was saying was, 'Be here now. All that stuff is out on the table. I just put it out there and you have to stand up to me and do your job and put all that away.' It was a terrifying and awful experience at once, and right afterward the most freeing."
It is his relationship with actress Troian Bellisario ("Pretty Little Liars") that has given him the courage to risk. "When you come from a divorced family there's something that happens where that trust of putting yourself in anybody else's hands and letting people love you, it's not easy. You push people away because that's what you know now ... I did that in a lot of relationships.
But with Bellisario it's a different story. "It's amazing to watch her," he says, nodding. "She grew up in this town (her father is television producer Donald Bellisario) so I've learned so much from her about that confidence and about owning what you do. But I also see someone who could've taken the easy track.
"She could've swung by all those things she grew up with, to see her every step of the way work actively against them -- she wants to earn it all herself. It's been an incredible inspiration to me and her faith in me motivates me when my faith in myself is gone."

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